My heart’s about to crack, and my mind’s about to break. I can’t keep doing this anymore. Every moment of every day is now a constant war in my self. I both want to drop to the ground and weep uncontrollably, but I also want to scream as loud as I can. I want to stay because she has no one else, but I want to walk away and just leave these people, and salvage what life I have left. It’s going to destroy me, because I’m being forced to choose between things I shouldn’t be forced to choose. My loyalty and empathy are going to be the death of me.